If leaving me is so easy

If leaving me is so easy,
going back is harder

Setelah beberapa lama, DIA kembali menghubungiku. Pria smart tak berperasaan ini menyampaikan keinginannya untuk kembali lagi padaku. Dia meminta kesempatan lagi untuk kesekian kalinya. Dia membuktikan kesungguhannya dengan datang ke Syd akhir taon ini.

Jawabku atas permintaannya, jelas TIDAK.

Dia melukaiku, sangat. Cukup sudah.
Aku terjatuh karena dia. Aku belajar berdiri dengan semua yang kumiliki tanpa dirinya. Aku mampu dan bertahan sampai saat ini.

Sudahlah, tenagaku cukup terkuras.
Sekarang ini, aku tak lagi ingin berlari. Aku hanya ingin mencoba mengayun langkah. Setapak demi setapak, sembari melihat keindahan sekeliling, yang sering terabaikan.

Aku hanya mencoba menikmati setiap detik yang berubah menghangat dan nyaman.
Saat aku mengayun langkah, setapak demi setapak, walau lambat, dan pelan.

Hi YOU,

Why YOU love me in this way.......

Questioning

What is the meaning of love, when "love" itself can't be described?
What about the commitment, when the "commitment" itself never exists?
What about True Love, when i never believe in tat part?
What about the begining when there's no end?
What about the future when i always lived in my past?
What tryin to smile for when you can't hide your tears anymore?
What is faithful when you do all the nasty things without any respect even to yourself?
What to make your appearance looked good for when people can't see the good things in you?

Everyone keeps talking

Promise me everything

But.....

They don't mean anything

Sorry...

Sorry...
I didn't mean wanna avoiding you.
I don't want if we argue again, b'coz I know both of us has a bad mood.
I don't want go away from u now and forever.
I think, they best way to us is let start from the begining.. start from zero.. we start be a friend.
Let time heals all our sorrow, pain and our relationship.

That's all I wish.

-Piggie-

I need someone to share, to talk...
I need someone to make my life more colourful
I need someone to hold..


Damn it~!!
I miss you!!!!

In Your Mind

perhaps we suddenly meet someone
who is merely a stranger
of whom we do not know

our mind says that it is the one
'this is my Mr. Right'
according to our perception in its absurd way

slowly when we find out they are not as imagined
we feel sorry, we feel angry, we feel dissapointed...

people tend to perceive something in their mind
based on what they want and what they expect
they create it so beautiful, and perfect from their viewpoint
but isn't it only in their mind?

and maybe we are searching for love
the ideal one according to our mind
of which it never exist...

jika kau mencintai seseorang,
pastikan kau mencintai dia yang sesungguhnya,
bukan seseorang yang kau ciptakan dalam imajinasimu..