Thursday, December 3, 2009

Why Am I So Sad?

Feeling down? Got the blues? You're not alone. Everyone gets sad. Yes, everyone you've ever met. Some people have sad feelings just once in a while, and others may have sad feelings pretty often. More than half of teenagers go through a sad period at least once a month and plenty of younger kids do, too.
When you're in a sad mood, it may feel like it will last forever, but usually feelings of sadness don't last very long — a few hours or maybe a day or two. A deeper, more intense kind of sadness that lasts a lot longer is called depression

What Is Sadness?
Sadness is a feeling — it's one of the many normal human emotions, or moods, we all have. Sadness is the emotion people feel when they've lost something important, or when they have been disappointed about something, or when something sad has happened to them or to someone else. When they're lonely, people often feel sad.
When you're sad, the world may seem dark and unfriendly. You might feel like you have nothing to look forward to. The hurt deep inside may crush your usually good mood.
Sadness makes you feel like crying, and sometimes the tears are hard to stop. Crying often makes you feel better.
Sometimes when your mood is sad, you just feel like being alone for a little while. Or you might want someone to comfort you or just keep you company while you go through the sad feeling. Talking about what has made you sad usually helps the sad feeling melt away.
When sadness starts to go away, it can feel like a heavy blanket is being lifted from your shoulders.

When Is It Natural to Feel Sad?
Feeling sad every once in a while is natural. Maybe you didn't get something you really wanted. Maybe you miss somebody. Maybe somebody you really like doesn't want to be friends, and you don't feel so great about yourself. Maybe an illness or condition gets in the way of doing some things you want to do or makes you different from your friends. There are lots of reasons that people feel sadness.
Most of the time, sadness is because of a loss or separation, a difficult change or disappointment about something, or relationship problems.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Poker CHips

Yeach,
Not only drive me crazy but my family too.
Mom, What`s a surprise!!
Ohlalalala

Saturday, November 14, 2009

FB Poker


Poker game drive me crazy all nite.

Ohlala..

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

26-09-09

That day, I just cried and cried [huaa...huaa] for hour. It is emotional overload.
Im never cried like this before.
My stress level had been building, building and building.
Actually thats nothing happen with me just it is an emotional overload.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

I'm so sleepy...

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Japan

Japan I'm cominggggg~!!!

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Weekend

Picnic at Botanical Garden. It was great.
I bought short wig, really looks nice.
"Happy" I had a good saturdaY.

Friday, May 29, 2009

Am I FAT???

YES I Am~!!
Hu hu how sad to said that.
Shock gw... dia blg gw ga merawat badan.(serasa Emak2 abis melahirkan di blg ga merawat badan) OHlalalla...
Bilang aja endutannnnnn masa ga merawat badan segh.. sebellllll dengerin nya.
Disuruh gw fallen to someone else biar bs jaga badan???????
Jadi maksud nya gw jeyekkkk bgtttttt gitu? gw endutttttt banget? ampe butuh suatu Objek buat gw berubah.
OHlalallallalallaaaaaaaaaa
ga tao mesti say thank you atau WTF ama lo.
Emang segh gw endutan skrg.. cuman jgn ampe blg gw ga jaga Bdn donk..
Ucghhhhhhhh

Friday, May 22, 2009

My Fav Drink


I love Smirnoff Ice Vodka

Sunday, May 10, 2009

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

My Dream

impianku, kapan bisa kesampaian yack..
apa kebanyakan? or ketinggian??
Ah..cuman bs daydream negh.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

BAH^$^&%$%$*&$


D A M N !!!!!

I had argue with my friend.

Son of Bitch~!!!




Monday, April 13, 2009

My Last HolidaY




I watched 2 movie today.


Saturday, April 11, 2009

Happy Easter~!!!



Ohlalala I bought 6 pairs of shoes this weekend.

I need to save my money again. Ucghh........

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Hang Over


I had never been drunk before.

It’s not cool getting drunk, I feel awful.

I wont be happen again.

I promise.

Monday, March 23, 2009

Sleepy

Im feel sleepy, I wanna sleep... but why my eyes can't closed.
I hope one glass of Sauvignon Blanc might be helpful.

-thingking of you-

Friday, March 20, 2009

My wish

Already ten days, but its still not recovery yet.
Pain...
Stressful...
Uncomfortable...
I think have been 1 week I couldn't smile.
I dont wanna people's know what going happen with me. I dont need sympathy.
All I need is Get Well Soon.
Thats all.
-Aspirin its helpful to less pain.-

Thursday, March 19, 2009

WHAT A xxx LIFE...!!!!

I didn't ever expect something like that to happen to me.
I'm usually very active and healthy so I didn't have a clue what was wrong with me.
At first,I didn't think about going to the doctor or taking any medicines because I simply thought I needed couple of day for recovery.
But, I was getting more and more annoyed, so painful.
17/03/09,I decided to see doctor and docter said that I should come back 2 days later for the diagnostic result. You know that, Waiting for my test result was stressful. I asked the docter for give me a medicine 1st, because i was feel so painful, but the docter said She could't, she need the laboratory result to make sure what kind of medicine i should take.
Oh my God,I'm was so depresion, how can I wait until 2 days?
Questions filled in my head what about if i am ...? What will I do? How do i tell my lovely parents and sisters? And I started seacrh from web to get more information.
(Now I know what people's feeling when they waiting for the result it's always the most scary thing to do - to find out that something just might be wrong with you.)

18/03/09,I received one email for docter about the result, docter need to see me.
Ohlallala I was freaking out. So fast. Something bad result? Huaaaaaaaaa
5.20pm I'm was in front of my docter, and She said I'm .......... Its not scary illness and very comman illness, but unfortunely its so painful and so uncomfortable.
(Yess,it is). I need take medicine twice a day, and the medicine it's quite expensive.
I hope I will get well soon. And this illness never come back again to me.
Its enough i spend my day with pain,cry and depresion. I dont wanna more.
WHEN MY ILLNESS WILL BE GONE??????????????
Arrrrrrrrgggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Gay and Lesbian Mardi Gras Syd 2009







Congratulations to everyone celebrating Sydney Mardi Gras!



Sunday, February 15, 2009

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Sunday, February 8, 2009

today

1. hari ini capekkk bangetttttttt
2. potong poni sndr, hasilnya C U L U N bangettttttt
3. beli lotto negh, moga2 dapattt, kepengen ke US negh
4. siang panas , malam dinginnnn

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Vtine & Bday





I got present from you.


Feeling blue~!

Sunday, February 1, 2009

tired...Bluehhhh~!!
i need something different, but i dunno what should i do to make my life more better and colourful.
explore, and try to find something new. it's wasn't always fun but i enjoyed a lot. (not bad huh?)
sometimes (ehmm exactly 'always") i get bored easily and wanna run away from anything.
sometimes get angry and try to hold myself.
very often feeling blue, thinking about my life, my school, my family, my dream, my ages, my work,my friend, my pimples, my facee, my hair, my skin, everythinggggg even a small thing. Never stop thinking. (Ucgh... my tripical it's so complicated right??)
sometimes i need someone to talk about everything, i need someone who can accept my childish and my selfish. I know in this word no one perfect.
well, so what i'm not perfect anyway????

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Feel tired

I couldn't sleep.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009


Saturday, January 3, 2009

Am I~?????

"Maybe YES, Maybe NO......
Maybe just a side effect of your mental healthy.."

"Are u sure?"

"I think u hv a psychological problem"

"..........."